We gathered together around the table, five times a day. Making it through the grueling re-feeding process in my anorexia recovery would have been impossible without the community of these ladies journeying with me through treatment at the Laureate Hospital in Tulsa. Alone, I was weak and unable to finish what seemed like an impossible task in front of me. Together, through tears, encouragement…
So many times when we encounter unmet expectations in life, someone we know will offer up a Bible verse or well-known saying to encourage us. However good their intentions are, often times their words of encouragement seem shallow compared to the hurt and pain we are experiencing. Author Lysa TerKeurst understands that all too well.
Sometimes being 18 years old seems like so long ago...because for me it was! But today, it feels like I am only moments older. It’s brilliant how our thoughts can move through scenes of the past and bring memories back to the forefront of our minds. It’s as if we are right back in that time…
As he sat there thinking about all that had happened to him in his past–the physical abuse, the neglect, the dysfunctional family relationships–I could see it in his eyes. Hope.
It was around this time, seven years ago, that I found myself in the midst of an agonizingly hopeless season. It was the two year anniversary of when my infertility journey began. I remember sitting across a restaurant table from my husband, discussing my thoughts on the new year and grieving the absence of the child we so desperately wanted. But, I shared with him that I had chosen a theme for the new year – the theme of hope. This theme encompassed my hopeful desire to become a mother, along with focusing on Christ as my hope. My struggle throughout this difficult season was when those two hopes would get out of alignment.
I confess that I cannot do life on my own. I’ve tried and it doesn’t work out for me.
In my time alone with Jesus, I’ve been reading about being so close with Him that it seems we are sitting side by side. That’s when He imparts His heart, His wisdom about my life. That’s what I want. I desire to be so close with Him that He can whisper and my ear will catch His next step for me.